Vegas here I come! Eventually...

After a ton of confusion and thought with no answers, followed by repeated questions in the form of, "When are you leaving?" and, "You're still here?" I decided to be more assertive and give the Deputy Chief of the Vegas division a phone call regarding my employment status. He called me back on Monday and told me that I did in fact pass phase II of the background check. They hadn't called me because they weren't sure when they wanted to start their next academy. I got a letter a few months ago saying it was in February but he told me that they were thinking maybe March now. He then told me that he wanted to have me in Vegas 2 months prior to the start of the academy. If that's the case, then it looks like I will be moving to Vegas in January now; a lot longer than the August move I was anticipating 6 months ago when I found out I was in. It's ok though as long as I know I have the job I'm happy. So now I get myself ready once again for the move. Let the apartment hunting and car tune-ups begin! I'm kind of nervous about going but at the same time I really want to get out of San Diego. Irene said it best in an e-mail she sent me a few days ago:

"It would be good to get away. I need to get away too...I feel San Diego is getting a bit small. 'Familiarity breeds contempt.'"

I feel the same way too, like I'm just here with no real purpose and going through the motions. I don't want to make it seem like I'm running away from what I have here but I feel I need something new in my life. And since I don't have a new girlfriend, a new job will have to do! I don't feel 100% ready to go but I don't think I will ever get to that point or realize just how ready I am until I am gone. While reading Phil Jackson's book, The Last Season, about the 2003-2004 Lakers, I came across this quote from him (and one that I feel I can relate to) about his future. He said this after the Lakers lost the NBA Championship and he had lost his job as the head coach:

"I have always been able to let go very easily. I'm the one now going in a different direction, to home, to a future that will sort itself out, one way or the other."

He didn't dwell on the disappointment that was the season or on the fact that he had no job and his relationship was being put to the test. He knew inside that everything would be ok. That is the exact same thing that I think to myself when I think about the new life that I am going to start soon. It will sort itself out, one way or another.